home again

Looking out the airplane window, i do not see mountains. A vast flat land covered mostly by swamp. The rich come here to die and the locals love this place because it is home. I already long for the shores in the mid-pacific but my sights lye elsewhere. It's back to work for me and i must be focused and determined. There is much to do, much to live for, and many places to go. Friendships I made in Hawaii will last forever and my dreams will be filled with the times we spent together.

It seems that it takes two to tango, and I don't know why we keep stepping on each others toes. I know what i want and where i want to be. Why does it seem you don't want to hold hands with me? We could be together if you only let go. Search your soul and mind to see there is nothing to be scared of except the fear of failure at whatever be at hand. Seemingly, you don't see eye to eye with me any longer, but this is why we can't still be together? I want to understand but my heart has let go of all worry and i will only allow what may come to be or pass with the wind. Today, i dance alone. This world is mine. Tomorrow has yet to come, when it does, I will move forward, I will not dwell. No, no longer will I dwell. Never again. If history is doomed to repeat itself, so be it, I will embrace every minute, hour, day, week, year with you again. I will worry not the time or day we go our separate ways. Be not afraid.

Best explains me.

Coming Through the Rye
by Robert Burns
(1759-1796)

Coming thro' the rye, poor body,
Coming thro' the rye,
She draiglet a' her petticoatie
Coming thro' the rye.

O, Jenny's a' wat, poor body;
Jenny's seldom dry;
She draiglet a' her petticoatie
Coming thro' the rye.

Gin a body meet a body
Coming thro' the rye,
Gin a body kiss a body -
Need a body cry?

Gin a body meet a body
Coming thro' the glen,
Gin a body kiss a body -
Need the warld ken?

"Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around - nobody big, I mean - except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be."

~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye, Chapter 22, spoken by the character Holden Caulfield

2 new alligator arms songs

the world will end with you and i

the world will flood from sea to sea
the water come to bury me
i came to watch the morning die
the world will end with you and i
breathing in, i open my eyes
the sun baths my room in yellow and gold
breath in, open your eyes
a voices whisper floats to my ears
today was just like any other day

i have searched
far and wide
to find a place to call mine
i have found
there's no such place

coming back to where i began
a body lay cold, emotionless
i once knew a person who filled this void

So many years i neglected my blood in need
i left you to die cold and alone
forgive me brother for i have sinned
i left you to die
forgive me brother

FORSAKEN

HURRY, pack the car
let's run away, never get tired
surrounded by, concrete walls
we will sleep, under the stars
under the stars

free from a lifetime of your restraint
the words you said
the things you never did

surrounded by, concrete walls
we will sleep, under the stars
under the stars

my tongue is sharp
and you'll hear everything you shut your eyes to
you took everything i had away from me
never gave me the love i needed
comfort was a roof over my head

you can keep what you worked for
cause you kept everything i needed locked up
place and displace your blame
and i will never forgive you
i will never forgive you

and you'll die alone in your accomplishment
and i will bask in your failure

overcoming your neglect came easy
but with a hard price and cost

and i hope you know deep down
who plunged the needles into innocent skin

and now you've forsaken me
everything I've done for you

Listen to the songs here -----> ALLIGATOR ARMS

bet you that...

I can climb a mountain and miss the last bus back to town and have to hitch hike in the dark. Made it. Hiked. Watched the sun set on top of a mountain. Amazing, yet simple day.

life's a beach

First off, my day started by bombing down a hill on my bike to meet up with James and Kannin. My new friends here are so amazing. I had a blast today in the sun doing flips off rocks into the beautiful waters of south shore. Stole food from two different organic markets and ate like a king. Rode the china town skatepark at night and hung out with Joey, Jasmine, and Rob (Who ended up being from Boca Raton). Small fucking world as usual. hah. Comin' close to going home and i am really going to miss this lava rock in the pacific. But i will be seeing rob in a week and Jasmine is going to train hop over to florida to hang out in a month. So, my new ohana will be visiting. Still have a few more adventures up my sleeve for my last couple days!

Curtains

the show is over
please exit through the side door
go home
the crew has to come
to clean the theater for tomorrows' viewing
the managment has pulled an old favorite from the vaults
it will not be the same one that was shown on this night
you can stay
but you can't stay here
some movies are classics
you never stop loving them
and i'll keep buying my ticket
buttering my pop corn
as long as the film keeps spinning

Past few days

Been enjoying the company of new friends in hawaii. Meeting new people and bonding friendships when you travel is so enriching. I learn more from new people i meet than I ever did in books or school. Body surfing at Sandies is SO fucking fun! Spent hours there using my new friends as booking boards on the shore break. Sure shot cafe rules. The skateparks in honolulu rule. New alligator arms songs are recorded. www.myspace.com/ihavealligatorarms . I leave way too soon, i want to stay and have fun with all my new friends. Breaks my heart but i am going home to many great new things including lots of screen printing, bike polo, track riding, alley cats, touring with bands, getting tattooed, traveling, train hopping, and anything else i want to do. This is my year! I will make it extraordinary. And i might be going flying on monday over hawaii! YES! <3 Mucho Pictures to be posted of my trip once it is complete.